I haven't been on here in so long! I say that everytime I get on this thing though. It's hard enough keeping a diary. So what's new. I finished the semester 2 weeks ago...got a 3.9 GPA, not bad I was just so mad that it wasn't a 4.0 lol. Anywayy..Now I'm looking for a job, I hate working because all I want to do is be a teacher but I applied to Starbucks this afternoon so hopefully I'll just get the job there. I wonder how in the heck I'm going to memorize all those drinks though =O

         I've had the worst 2 weeks of my life I think. It's so hard when you love something so much and you know you should let it go because its not good for you, but you can't =[ I need to build some sort of trust again for me to be able to go on with this. It's not very easy to gain my trust back once it's been lost. But we'll have to try.

         I'm thinking of moving Upstate to Saratoga Springs. I've wanted to move Upstate for a long time anyway but Laz and his mother are going eventually and I have been invited to go also...which I probably will, but who knows.  I love the lifestyle up there so much better, I love how I am up there, I love the place itself..compared to the fast paced chaotic city where almost everyone and everything annoys me. There are too many people with too many problems, too much drama, who love to cause problems for others and interfere with their lives...and I'm sick of it. I'm not saying that there aren't people like that in Saratoga, but honestly you won't run into it often. We'll see what happens though, I can't wait to have my own place, buy my own food, not have to hear a complaint every 10 minutes. Wonderful =]

          I must MUST go on a diet and STAY on it this time. Every damn day I say "okay I will start my diet tomorrow" and I NEVER stick to it. Ugh. Not only to lose weight, but I have not been taking care of myself at all. I felt so much better when I was eating healthy...I had much more energy and I just mentally[as well as physically] felt better.  I also quit smoking at that time, which is something that I know I have to do again. $9.00 a pack now is going to kill me, as if the $7.25 didn't already. I would like to just be healthy. I also have to start working out again. I've let myself go too much too often for too long. Starting right now[ignoring the fact that I just ate way more than I should have], I'm going to stick to a diet. I hate always saying "I'm fat", "I need to lose weight", etc. When I was being healthy I hardly ever did that, I'd like to be more confident and feel better about myself.

         I really want to try and update this thing a little more often.

lala....im just bored so I decided to write something here. Don't know what yet.

My mom bought me a really pretty ring today.  It's got pink hearts and little diamonds all the way around.  It's too big for my ring finger so I'm wearing it on the middle.  What else...hmm....I like my new job.  Well, I've been working there almost a month now, its not boring like my other jobs, the people I work with are really nice, my hours are really good, time goes by fast there and the pay isn't bad either.

I just ordered the tickets for me & Laz to go to the Bayside concert in October.  This will be my 3rd time seeing them, I love their shows. I reaaaaalllllllyyyyyyyyyyyy wanna go to the zoo. But it's getting cold now! I've been wanting to go all summer lol.  If not I'll just have to wait til next summer. 

Yesterday was nice...my mom, sister, a friend, Laz & I went on a picnic.  It started raining soon after we got there but its okay cuz we went under this porch type of thing and sat under there and had the picnic there.  We ate really good food...Then when it got nicer we played tennis, scrabble and relaxed.

My room is a really really big mess I need to clean it so bad lol.  I started taking everything down and packing stuff back in August cuz we were gonna repaint and carpet my room, but then I got lazy and I had too much stuff to pack so now its just piling up and everything is everywhere and its a mess. haha.

Over the summer I went Upstate and it was so relaxing. I love it up there, I especially loved being there with Laz. I loved being able to walk to the supermarket at 2 in the morning without having to worry, I loved being able to see hundreds of stars, the freshness and beauty of nature there, etc. It's just so nice, I hope to do it again one day.  We went swimming in a huge lake [Sacandaga] and it was really nice.

Okay I think I'm done for now lol I wrote a lot.  Goooooooodnight! =] 

Heyy~!

I decided to start writing on xanga again...cuz I kinda missed it lol. I conformed to myspace-ism but now I'll use both. So new layout n everything. I kinda like the "new xanga".

Woww its been so long I don't even know where to start! Sooo many things have happened and changed since I stopped writing...I changed a lot! haha.  I don't even know if all my old xanga friends are still here.

Okay well first thing...I got into the college I wanted but I didnt go cuz it was insanely expensive. So I'm in college now but I'm transferring(hopefully) to StonyBrook next term! =D I want to be a History and ESL teacher and that is the perfect school. But its not all smooth sailing(for stupid reasons) and my grades will probably suffer. I have to work harder.

I didn't go to Korea over the summer, but I am going next summer(hopefully). Instead, I went out with my friends and had a one week sleepover at Amanda's house again. We did tons of things and even went ice-skating(yes during the summer) at Chelsea Piers. Summer was fun, but it was sad to say goodbye to my friends cuz they all are dorming and different colleges..but we still talk so thats good.

Guys? Haha thats a whooolee other story I can write that I don't even want to get into because it would take a book. There's always confusion and drama...no escape from it...but I'm hoping certain things will work out and then some of the drama can go away and some things..if not everything, will be okay =)  

I don't really draw as much anymore, but I do design clothes n stuff in spare time. My Korean has gotten much better haha. I still watch tons of Kdrama's and listen to music...I don't read manga or watch anime much anymore..IDK why maybe I just dont have time or money for it anymore..but I still love it.

I have some new friends I hang out with since all my friends went away..but my friends will always be my family. I hang out at some different places now like the city at night sometimes. I intern at my old highschool at the SPARKS program.  I've changed a lot but I've mixed the old me with the new me so it's all good. lol.

Soo much to write...I'll stop here I think. I'll try to write often. Leave comments!! haha.

BBYE!